More than a year after that fateful valentines day, where Paralympic champion Oscar Pistorius shot his girlfriend Reeva Steenkamp, I still find myself asking how this could have happened.
After reading the latest Sunday Times which gave detailed reports on the matter, I sat down to analyze the whole situation once more. So many things seem to have been erased from the story.
It's also a pity that Reeva is not here to tell us her version.
Ballistics professionals showed that Oscar was indeed on his stumps when he fired the shots.
This ties in with the statement he made saying that he felt vulnerable and was scared for his life.
So many questions arise that I'm sure everyone has already asked. He still says he thought she was an intruder and that he acted to save their lives. Ok, I get that, but there are facts in this story that make me think otherwise.
Why didn't he check on her, isn't that the first thing you would do? I mean we all know how scared we girls get. If it was my man he would probably hide me in a cupboard or something. And why on earth would she take her cellphone to the loo at that time of the night? And lock herself in there? Something just doesn't add up, I mean you guys are an item, what doesn't he know? He knows the smell of your fart and knows that your left bum has a beauty spot.
Anyway now there are reports that he was looking at porn that night, a sign of some trouble on paradise.
It's very hard to keep a clear unbiased head when the media give you so many reasons not to believe he is innocent.
All we know is that the girl was shot more than once. Did he not hear her scream? Did he not worry that the gunshots would scare her, wherever he thought she was?
Yaz I really don't know anymore. But I put myself in his shoes and thought what if it was my brother who shot his girl?
What if it was my dad?
Anyway, I hope that the truth comes out in the end, if innocent, I pray Oscar can live his life and continue with his career. I am still his fan and I'd love to see more action. If he is not innocent, may he tell the truth and set Reeva's soul at rest. And may he be forgiven by his family, friends, the Steenkamps and the world.
By:Thabi Mnguni @missWami